Band.....Sianz

I believe those from HCI already know that i am in the band who plays in the morning without instrument...

I kinda feel a bit left out and useless.......
I dunno why but just standing there listening to the band play in front of everyone seems wierd......
At least i get something to play even though i play a large (not to mention huge...) instrument like colin, suppose to play bassoon get to 'pretend' to play the clarinet.

And.....i now officially dislike band!!! Hopefully none of my band friends or seniors will know about this blog but yes, i dislike band!!! The practice is too strenuous (not to mention long....), i can't take it any longer..... It's depriving me of my sleep in the morning too. Especially tmr, need to reach by 6.30 AM!!!
I don't really feel committed to band at all.....first half still okay but now i find that band is not my dream cca in any way.......

This is the main reason why i am trying to appeal to go to EC3. At least i feel quite happy in ec3 and i am devoted to ec3.... I still continue to do programs once in while and i think i am better than some ec3 classmates like edmund...

Sadly, i think i'll have to stay in band for at least till the end of the year...
After that, i've already made up my mind to go ec3 FULLY...

Also, i think i'm going to flunk my exams... I think i did quite badly for all......

I think i'm just too stressed these few weeks with all these exams, CCA, etc, all stuck in my head... I really need to find some time to get a breather (not to mention now)...

Now, I still got 1 more exam to go, english oral...
I know that term 3 is coming to an end but wierdly this doesn't seem to be making me happy in any way....

To think that i was sooo happy yesterday....

I think my emotions are going crazy...look at the titles of the last few posts...LOLZ!!!

Sianz...